A Reading for Sexual Trauma

Here are excerpts from an email reading I did for a woman who was seeking psychic help for ongoing and debilitating physical, emotional and relationship problems.

"Do you have experience with auras?"

"A little bit. Why do you ask?"

"Oh, a "psychic" told me that because of something very bad that happened to me long ago, my aura became completely closed. She said it's invisible and that it can make people react badly to me."

"If it's something that you know about, you can pray specifically to heal it. Sometimes trauma that happens to us in this life happens because there's already an imprint in that area from a past life event. Alot of people have suffered past life trauma, and it certainly can affect you in the here and now. In Buddhism, one of the prayers is to find the "inner magnet" that attracts certain people and circumstances to you, and dissolve it. You would do this with intention, and by monitoring your thoughts, words and deeds on a daily basis, to make sure you are not generating further negative karma for yourself.

You can do alot with prayer. You can talk to your Higher Self or the Universe, or Spirit or God, or whatever works for you, and say that if there IS a problem, please fix it. And give thanks knowing it is done. This is very powerful. There is nothing more powerful on this earth than your own intention.

I know that sometimes we close our chakras at certain areas for certain reasons, and that it can lead to illness. Usually trauma is the number one reason we shut down. So, say for example you had a sexual trauma. Perhaps you may have closed your second chakra, which is the chakra about 2 inches below the belly button, right where a woman's reproductive organs are. Or perhaps the opposite is true, and it is too open, or someone has "corded" you, continuing the abuse on a psychic level. The trauma itself might tend to repeat, so you may attract partners or relationships that tend to try to violate you. That may be what the psychic meant.

Trauma is like a skip in a record. Similar events can happen over and over until it is cleared. Trauma can be like a vicious cycle until it is healed. If, for the sake of example, you were to sit quietly and think about your light body (chakras and aura) and focus on your second chakra, you could ask your guardian angels to make sure it is open appropriately for your greater good. Also ask that any cords be severed and that any holes in your aura be repaired. You can do this with every chakra. The most important thing, though, is to consciously intend to open the crown chakra at the top of your head. That lets in the light that can heal everything, and make stuck issues begin to dissolve.

If this bad thing happened to you in this life, and you are still mad at someone, or haven't forgiven someone, it is very important for your own healing to do your best to let go of this person completely in your heart and mind. If you carry rage or desire for revenge, that can also act like a magnet, bringing further pain into your life. It sounds weird, but if you hold something against someone, right or wrong, it continues the relationship. So, maybe you should do my claim-your-space exercise and kick out any energies that are not yours. In your case it might not be a ghost, but the remaining energy of someone who hurt you. You can evict it, and claim all of your energy as your own. You can also call back any energy that you may have directed at this person, and take it back and bring your energy back into your own light body through the top of your head. You can call back your energy from any person or unpleasant situation that has ever upset or hurt or angered you.
You don't need anyone's permission to take control of your space. It's yours and no one else's. You can use your own healing angels and repair any damage. It's kind of like a big game of pretend, but it really works."

"The "bad thing" was sexual assault -- your intuition was completely accurate. You've given me hope. I can't thank you enough for that. You make perfect sense -- my second chakra was ripped open when I was a child, and I think it was like a beacon to every predator whose path I crossed. I grew up thinking I was completely evil. I have never been able to come to terms with the fact that there were numerous incidents, unrelated to each other, in which I was violated. From the age of three and into my adulthood.

And after reading the things here, I realize that I've carried all of that with me. And it has even led to physical illness in the form of severely painful endometriosis. And I can feel terrible cords holding me to dangerous people. And you are so right -- I need to let all the rage go... because under my surface I am being eaten alive by a suppressed rage. And it's only hurting *me* instead of them. And if I hurt them, then I'm only damaging my own karma.

I'm kind of blown away right now, sitting here stunned and letting it all sink in.

You have done something so truly wonderful, Kelly. I'm sitting here with tears streaming down my face -- because all of this is just so incredible. I mean, how much longer would I have suffered with all of this if I hadn't reached out and opened up to you, a stranger on the internet? I'm going to study your blogs about grounding and shielding. I'm going to do everything you recommend.

Kelly, thank you so much. Thank you, thank you, thank you."